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A human with a severe lack of common sense, and powerfully apathetic towards his deficiency; To completely and utterly
screw something up so badly that it cannot be repaired. The result of sending in an idiot to deal with a burched situation;
a rick is another name for a short fat hairy apeman that nobody likes.
posted on Friday, June 08, 2007 @ 6/08/2007 09:13:00 PM | back to the top.
Today had it's ups and downs. Went to school at 2...dad dropped me off. Had a test at 3 which was damn easy. Went to eat at 4 with Jotham and Jun Kai...later Chee, Hong Da and Ah Bin came...lol. Again they started with their chat about prison break. They're really fanatics about the series man gosh...if only they watched Heroes. Sat at the canteen till about 5.30 when we decided to go home and then come out to meet again. Ended sitting at YCK bus interchange for about an hour deciding where to go. In the end they decided to go play billiards, me and Ah Bin...LOL...he's my lieutenant according to him, didn't want to go cause we would be bored stiff if we had gone and moreover we had just gone yest with them to play billiards. Javier who's supposedly my "Captain" was also there...3 of us went to eat again this time behind YCK swimming pool. Ate and sat there talking rubbish till around 7.45pm. They decided to go back to school to see their volleyball team-mates well it was Javier's team-mates not Ah Bin's. I went to see my tennis-mates and there I saw them training so hard for IVP...something which I failed to achieve this year. Felt so darn depressed straight away...then I saw her. That made me even more depressed. I mean seeing her made me feel happy but after seeing her and him there...both of them so close, my heart just sank. I think that was the saddest moment of my entire life. I just wanted to leave the court as soon as I could...called Ah Bin and Javier and we left in a cab home. They had plans to celebrate Chee's birthday later at clarke quay...I wished I could've gone with them...that way I could've drowned all my sorrows in the booze but my dad's back and I've got to spend some QUALITY time with him since he's only here until tomorrow afternoon. I'm that damn sad now...my 18th birthday's in a few days time and I feel nothing about it...it's just sadness and regret that's filling me right now and pain and anguish that's flowing out. I don't even know if that last thing I typed meant anything or even sounded right. I don't care...gosh. It's gonna be a sad 18th birthday for me....ADVICE for you people who are in love out there: NEVER...and I mean NEVER take your own sweet time to tell the person you love that you love him/her. If you like the person...go all out and never let him/her slip away.
That's all today guys and girls...until next time...maybe there won't even be a next time...gosh...AHHHHHH...nevermind...BYE
posted on Sunday, June 03, 2007 @ 6/03/2007 11:52:00 PM | back to the top.
Gosh...facing serious financial difficulty now. Seriously went over my budget for the month of May and I am suffering for it now. Dad hasn't given me my allowance and I have a lot of stuff to pay for. Particulary this coming Sunday for my chalet...I need to get all the food stuffs, drinks and everything else. I haven't got this month's handphone bill as well which is a bummer. Just bought a thumbdrive for school and DVD-Rs, I still need to get more CD-Rs as well which is gonna cost me another 30 bucks. I've not even passed the first week of June and I'm broke...gosh. Calculating and calculating made me realised I spent close to $800 for May which is makes my heart ache each time I mention it. $350 goes on transportation, food and my phone bill. I have no idea where $450 more went to....I should have kept the bills. Maybe this month I shall do that...keep a book record of whatever I purchase and have spent on for the day. Money is not easy to earn, for 4 long hours of work I only get paid $40...not good at all. I would have to work 80 hours to earn back whatever I've spent for the month of May.Sigh..anyway I've just finished watching Jackass Number 2 and Blades of Glory.
Jackass Number 2 rocked my socks off...I mean the stunts they did were totally insane and funny. Stunts like "Firehose Rodeo","The Brand", "The Gaunlet" and a few more were stunts that I actually enjoyed watching but a few were just too damn sick and disgusting.
Blades of Glory is a must see. If you enjoy Ferrell you will love this film. It is just a feel good laugh out loud comedy. There is not a bad performance in the movie. It was mildly funny in a sort of creepy/annoying way. This movies fits perfectly with my taste in comedies like Talladega Nights, Zoolander, Anchorman, Old School and Starsky and Hutch. If you like these kinds of films you will love this film.
That's all for today..I'm signing off with 7 bucks left for the rest of the week...LOL
posted on Friday, June 01, 2007 @ 6/01/2007 09:54:00 PM | back to the top.
Light the paper, wait for the all clear,Like a fuse I burn for you dear,
Like a flower that yearns for moisture,
My roots are tangled and I’ve got no choice dear.
You’ve got to remember, I got a heart condition,
Just listen closer, every fourth beat is missing
If it ain’t missing then it’s skipping.
It’s good for nothing is it good enough for you?
I hate to see your heart breaking.
But I’ll hold it safe in my hands.
I don’t know if my words can bind it together,
But that’s all I know how to do.
I ain’t got much, but a lopsided smile and a lovesick recital.
A love so surreal, it seems mystical.
I ain't got much, but mumbled comforts and sweet nothings.
A love will you accept from this foolish thing?
posted on Wednesday, May 30, 2007 @ 5/30/2007 10:20:00 PM | back to the top.
Mixed emotions these few weeks...a lot going on lately...finally remembered my google account to access my blog dashboard. The M'sian Army thing has just been settled by my dad, so according to him I have deferred their NS but once poly ends, they'll be expecting me back. My sis just finished her op on tues, thank the lord it went well and she's recuperating now. Tests giving me a lot of stress too including all these projects, and I just can't seem to find the motivation to continue with my course. It's so boring...it's like I'm being forced to study unwillingly all these rubbishing modules. School's becoming a sad place too. Drifting away from the only 2 people I get along in class with but I can't help it..my class is too chinese and I always feel like the odd one out. I'm out of tennis until further notice (plus I can't do shit now cause my ankle is swelling again and I suspect that I have tennis elbow), which was my only true source of fun in school. Another thing that's bothering me is that I may be facing lotsa competition for Ms.C and I'm afraid I'll lose out because I'm nothing much. But I have faith in myself...I can't be that weak especially since I've been chasing her for the longest time already so FIGHT ON!!
Birthday coming soon as well just 10 more days...nothing to brag about...not doing much for it either.
Anyway here's what I've been up to:
Watched this DVD: Idiocracy starring Luke Wilson...this movie is hilarious as hell, can't beat Jackass though...well nothing can beat that...but it's still good
Read this book too...it's just plain Bart Simpson from start till end...how to cheat in tests...what food is good in life...how to skip classes without getting caught...it's a book that you should read if you've got nothing else better to do with your free time.
Guess that's all i'm gonna blog today...be sure to get more reviews from movies like Jackass the Second and Blades of Glory
posted on Sunday, March 25, 2007 @ 3/25/2007 12:10:00 AM | back to the top.
It's officially Kane's 18th birthday today...how envious of him am I. Gosh, my time will only come in 3 more miserable long months. Monday's the big celebration...all of us are so excited especially Kane I guess..or me? hahaha. His mom gave him 2 bottles of liquor, XO and Martel so I guess pretty much we're gonna be tipsy at his party. I think we've got almost everything bought already...except the butter and sotong...haha. Dang, I just sent my PS2 for re-modification few hours ago and I'm starting to miss it already. Have to wait till next Thursday to collect it. Can you believe it cost me $165 just to change the chipset, gosh and that's not even the latest one cause my set can't handle the latest mod-chip, it is TOO DAMN OLD. PS3 is out but I'm not intending to get it until the pirated games are in production, and I assume by then I'd have saved up enough to get myself one..HAHAHA. ARGHH...bored bored bored...think I'm probably gonna sleep early tonight and head to Kane's place early tomorrow...so that's all for today...it's a short post I know...but that's all I've got to say!BUAIZZZZZZZ...
posted on Friday, March 16, 2007 @ 3/16/2007 12:23:00 AM | back to the top.
gosh...freaking sick. The worst sickness that could attack a mortal being is the flu. Makes your nose so stuffy and uncomfortable. Worse thing is that whenever I get the flu, I become Mr.Grumpy Mumpy. Felt so sick today that it affected my shopping. Kept dropping everything off the shelves because I kept sneezing and this made me feel more irritated so I didn't bother to do any and let my sis do all the shopping. So much more stuff I want to get yet they're so hard to find. This is going to be a stupid post because I'm just gonna state what's on my shopping list.From head to toe here it is -
TOPS:
Stussy Folded Tee
Stussy Electric Co. Tee
Threadless Ghetto hoody
Penguin Polo Tee
BOTTOMS:
Dickies Work Pants (Black, Brown)
Levi's Jeans
SHOES:
Adidas Forum
Adidas Metro Attitude
Adidas sl 72
Onitsuka Tiger Mexico
Puma Becker's
yup...that's more or less it. Kane's birthday is coming up soon...just 9 more days and 5 more days till my results are released. So it'll either be my enjoying myself with all the booze celebrating good results or wallowing and drowning myself in booze ashamed of the bad results. Alright...I got to go sleep people...I'm ill remind you so I need plenty of rest.
posted on Tuesday, March 13, 2007 @ 3/13/2007 05:58:00 PM | back to the top.
sheesh...my holidays are really starting to get boring. All I'm doing is getting sick, watching DVDs and playing video games. Though last week was pretty alright though. Went to Kane's house to stay, then he came over to mine to stay, then I went back the next day to his place. 2 best friends having holidays and have nothing to do. Though he did have his gf to go out with unlike me...so ALONE...so SINGLE...hahaha. Last Saturday night I went clubbing at Fluid, gosh...girls there are damn sexy and all that but seriously sluty and sleazy, not at all my type. Went with my siblings, Dan..Cin and Mich, and classmates, JK, JJ, Ben, Xiao Yang. Dan, Cin and Mich were just there to CHAPERON me as they said. Saw a few people I should not have seen there..and a few whom I haven't met since my pri sch days. Danced a bit, DJ was a bit crappy...replayed a few songs over and over again and it seemed like he just downloaded some Best of EA SPORTS songs. Not boasting here but I think I might even have a better collection than him though Dan would thrash him bad...dude has bout 1,000++ cds if I'm not wrong...maybe even more. James came over yesterday...we had a Rocky Anthology marathon and felt so pumped up after watching them all or maybe I was the only one feeling pumped up.Gosh...it's gonna be another boring week for me. I think I'm just gonna go out by myself..got some reading to do too..so maybe I'll get a latte at starbucks or something and chill out reading over there.
Here's a lame sick joke before I go off,
Boy A: "The Phantom Menace is in my pants!"
Boy B: "You put the toy in your pants?!?!"
Boy A: "I was referring to my penis"
posted on Saturday, March 03, 2007 @ 3/03/2007 08:42:00 PM | back to the top.
SHEESH...I've been sleeping too much since the end of my exams, yes I did say I was going to hibernate the other day but I didn't expect to sleep so much. Woke up at 1am Friday morning after sleeping for the whole of Thursday. Watched NBC's Heroes which my sis passed to me, 17 episodes...not the full season though cause it hasn't even ended in the US. Damn addicted to it...it's quite cool though a bit exaggerated in a few parts and the acting a bit weak but I would give it a 8/10. Watched all 12 episodes from 2am till 7am, that's when I slept again and woke up at 3pm. Watched the remaining 5 episodes before I headed for Kane's place to stay. Played dota...a game I definitely suck in. Kane watched Heroes on my laptop later on and I played tower defenses. Both of us slept at around 4am. I woke up around 2pm then next morning...Kane was already out of bed and out. Had a splitting headache...felt so giddy I had to go back to the room to rest after washing up. Kane bought lunch back with Yi Liang. Kane played dota again...he wanted to test out a bug that Liang told him there was in the game. Kane left the house at 4 to meet his gf, I was waiting for Dan to come pick me up to his place to play PS2, also wanted to bring it back home cause I'd be so bored during the holidays. Reached his place around 5...played Winning Eleven till 7 afterwhich I transferred Heroes to his computer hard drive. So he started watching it and I packed up to go off home. And here I am now blogging, think I'm going to meet Kane later for supper. Since I'm so free now I remember I said I'd bring a someone to the Yishun Dam to check out the scenery...hahaha. Alright...I gotta go, let's hope this holiday will be exciting.Check out........................................
posted on Thursday, March 01, 2007 @ 3/01/2007 04:43:00 PM | back to the top.
OOOHHH YEAH...exams have finally ended for me, gosh...I'm so free now. I'm so free that I don't even know what's there to do with all the free time I have. That's a worry...I do NOT want to have my holidays spent at home pigging out and watching tv, well that's actually a good thing but it's only going to make me more lazy than I already am. Currently waiting for a job to work at "The Show Company" with mich's hubby, don't know when that is going to happen. Gosh, think I have to get to kinokuniya to get some books to read, maybe visit Laser Flair to rent some movies to watch...I have no idea. Oh yeah...got a new blog layout/skin, just wanted something different...got bored with the whole B.A.P.E thing. Though this layout may only be temporary until I do up my own skin, that is if I'm remember to do one or if I'm not too lazy.OKOK...first things first, I have to catch up on my sleep. So I'm gonna go hibernate in my room, weather seems so fine to do so too..it's all chilly and cozy. Here's something Cin's hubby, Dan, shared with me on YouTube, listen to how this Indian dude get's owned on live radio, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6RtufnERIc. I'm pasting the URL cause I have no idea why I can't embed YouTube Vids like before...if anyone knows please kindly teach me.
posted on Saturday, February 24, 2007 @ 2/24/2007 11:40:00 PM | back to the top.
Woke up this morning, felt damn cranky. Dreamt of 4D somemore, very unusual cause I don't even like it and I think it's just stupid, what is the probability of the numbers you've just bought that's going strike? ok, I definitely did not have the mood to study today, just very frustrated. Mom came home from church without calling home to tell me that she's bringing her friend back, gosh and I was just in boxers, how embarassing...got even more pissed off. Cin called...said to meet at Vivo City around 7 plus for dinner. Wanted to study a bit before going but the mood still wasn't there so I played some handphone games and lay on my bed. Got ready only at 6 when Mich was expecting me there already. Got the mich's place at 7, mom called to say she was walking back from church. Picked her up later by cab around 7.15. Then met Cin and Dan before heading up for dinner at No Signboard Seafood. Place was crowded I tell you but damn lousy service, we reserved a table for 8.30 and it was already 8.25 when we reached...so we were expecting our table to be ready. Turns out we had to wait another 20mins more cause it was full house. So we got our table later, ordered chilli kangkong, black pepper venison, some steamed fish with salted veg, spring onion and garlic crabs and chilli crabs. They were supposed to be famous for their crabs but we found nothing special about them, everyone got tummy aches after eating the chili crabs. Came back home straight and here I am, very stressed about Java exam and DCN, not to mention Management cause after reading the past year paper today it seemed every question was a case study question. Tomorrow I shall perservere and study as how I did for Econs and make sure I get an A for this module, I must not get anything lower than a B for any of my Business modules!Partying is going to start this 2nd March, got a list of things I need to do. Alright, that's all for today I guess..goodnight folks!
posted on Friday, February 23, 2007 @ 2/23/2007 01:06:00 PM | back to the top.
Hey there...gosh...haven't had the time to blog about my trip to KL since I came back. But fret not...cause here I am.I'll make it short and brief..here's the whole thing:
Day 1: Dan drove me and my mom at 6.30am in the morning to Copthorne Orchid Hotel to wait for the bus that was taking us to M'sia. We reached there at 7am when the bus was scheduled to departure at 8.30am. Lucky for me and my mom, this bus company offered a free coffee-cake breakfast at the Palm's cafe. Bus came, and it was those new double decker buses. I thought the inside was going to be damn prestigious and hoping for what Cindy said that it would be like travelling in a Merz and gosh, how dashed my hopes were when I got up the bus. It was really damn cramped though there were 2 TVs. All in all the bus ride was not so bad, took about 4hrs plus to reach KL which is rather fast by road.
Reached KL...had a short nap because I didn't sleep on the bus (I couldn't because the seats were that small!!). My 5th aunt was the first to visit us but that was because she was gambling upstairs since morning itself. Came and complained that she lost about 200 ringit. My cousin later brought me upstairs to gamble as well...lost 30 ringit on my first day itself...bad sign! Went for dinner with dad and mom to Sushi King, dad got damn pissed with some gays that were sitting at the next table (he hates gays). Went back home...watched The Marine and Casino Royale with my dad and fell asleep after.
Day 2: Woke up at 2pm, aircon was damn shiok..hahaha. My 5th aunt and cousin came again. They came to take us to my 4th aunt's place. But before that, my 1st aunt and more of my cousins and my nephews(damn hyper-active) came to visit us for a while. So later when I went to my 4th aunt's place, me and my 2 favourite cousins decided to go out instead of staying home. Wanted to go watch Ghost Rider but all the timings were much too late so we ended up walking around the shopping centre doing nothing and talking nonsense. When we were on the way back, my cousin tried to do a drift with his car...LOL, mind you he's only 19 and he already has a car. Damn violent, he was going at 130Km/h and I swear I would have pissed in my pants if his car could do a drift. Went back to gamble somemore before going back home, won some cash..hahaha...Reached home, watched Curse of the Golden Flower, really a dumb show. Jay Chou's acting sucked, Chow Yun Fat was too crazy as an Emperor and Gong Li had her boobs pushed up so much it was very distracting.
Day 3: I had to go back today, wished I could've stayed longer but I got my exams on in just a few days time and I haven't really prepared. Got on the early afternoon bus, saw this damn huge malay family boarding the bus and I told my mom: " We're definitely not going to have a peaceful ride". I'm not being racist or anything here but sometimes when they're in a large group, they tend to get pretty loud. This I have to admit was the WORST busride I have ever had in all my years travelling to M'sia and back. First, the bus driver didn't stop driving for 3 hours straight and I needed to piss real bad...I mean REALLY BAD. It was so bad, my bladder started hurting and I couldn't move, then I started breaking out in cold sweat and I almost fainted and my mini-me started to feel numb, YES that was how bad it was. Imagine all the cursing and swearing I made in front of my mom. She even suggested that I pee into a plastic bag or bottle but NO WAY was I gonna do something so wrong. Got to a toilet after holding it all up for more than 3 hours when the bus stopped for dinner. And just when I thought I could get some sleep on the bus, a malay lady started cursing damn loudly in the bus in malay, then the ang moh sitting with his singaporean chinese gf turned back and shouted: " Hey, there is no reason why you should go on swearing in May-Lay(that's how it sounded when he said malay)" I got up straight and looked back wondering what happened. After eavesdropping for like 10mins, I realised the malay lady was angry with the chinese girl because she couldn't move about at her seat because of the chinese girl's reclined seat. The chinese girl then said:" If you wanted me to move my seat up, you could just wake me up and tell me, I have no problem with it but that doesn't give you the right to curse me." Then the malay lady retaliated:" I think it's right to curse you, don't think you got ang moh bf means you big, and please stop slanging la, you pretending not to be singaporean is it!". Chinese girl:" Please I don't want any trouble here, you have a grand child here beside, you think it's right to be cursing in front of her?" Malay lady:" That's my own problem, she's my grandchild not yours and it's right that you should be cursed!" Ang Moh:" Hey, we're not looking for trouble here, we didn't mean anything" Malay boy who comes from the front: " Hey you shut up...you wait...you come singapore I F*** you!" Another malay boy:" You F***ing cb bastard...you think you paid for all the seats is it? We did too ok, so f*** off you bastard! Just wait...we reach singapore, I F*** you man!" Violent...but this was quite funny in a sense cause it sounded like the phone recording I heard of the Ah Beng and Bangla fight so I laughed quietly in my heart. The ang moh and his chinese gf then turned away and ignored everything. Soon, all was quiet. Reached S'pore only at 2am in the morning, bloody busride took 8 hrs to come to Singapore, I could've gone to Thailand and come back within that period of time, hahaha. Anyway...that is all for the trip.
Yest had my Stats exam...did ok...maybe a C+ or a B. This morning had my Econs exam, think I did quite ok though I was the first to leave the exam hall, maybe I can get a B or B+ or if im lucky enough, an A..hahaha.
Well that's all I have to post today, I'm at Kane's place chillin a while before I go home to study again.
Thanks for reading my long boring posts!
posted on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 @ 2/14/2007 12:49:00 AM | back to the top.
Here's what happened today, I woke up in the morning looking like one of those characters from Dragon Ballz. What I saw later in my mom's room kept me in stitches the whole day. My mom dyed her hair by herself, apparently she said she had too many white strands of hair. Instead of the usual brownish black she always buys, today she tries something new, Mahogany.Here's the cost of having to dye your own hair:
- Cost of hair dye - $14.60
- Cost of having to dye your own hair - $0
- Cost of dye-ing your hair wrongly - Your JOB!!
- Cost of having your son come in to the room who starts laughing non-stop once he notices that your hair is dyed wrongly - PRICELESS
Yea..The first thing I said to her was: " Hey, you look like Krusty the Clown or Cyndi Lauper!" I'm mean, yes I know that myself but it was funny, and here's how she looked(you can see me in the mirror laughing while taking the photo),
hahaha...check out the BRIGHT RED FRINGE, I had no idea my mom was such a Punk Rocker.
Cindy came over later to do scan some stuff, she and I had planned to go out today. Went first with her to OCBC to get some new notes for red packets, then headed to Thomson Plaza to get our body massage. Gosh, it was damn painful but bloody well nice after the whole thing was done. Cindy got a lady to do her back while I got this Malaysian dude. He asked me to take off my shirt and I went like....ERRR for what especially when there's nobody else who had their shirts taken off. HMMMM....but I did anyway since he said the effects would be better. When he did my back and neck, it wasn't really all that painful, more like ticklish especially when he did my shoulder blades. Next he helped do my sprained ankles, yes both of my ankles are sprained. This was the one that hurt like hell, I swear...I could've passed out there and then if didn't stop him occasionally. He used his full force rubbing my ankles and twisting them from side to side. There was even one instance where he twisted both my ankles inward at the SAME time and that was the killer blow, because of that I almost kicked his face. Yes, I know that some pressure has to be used to cure these injuries but to use that amount of force? That could've broken my foot! Gosh, anyway after the whole thing we went for lunch afterwhich we looked around the optical shops at Thomson Plaza to have me make a new pair of specs. Went into this shop called erm...First Contact Lens Centre. Saw this damn pretty girl, maybe around 18 or 19 but she was freaking tall and was damn bloody rich, she had on an Ed Hardy Trucker Cap;Burberry Watch;Coach handbag;Lacoste shoes and all in all, she was the bomb..though she was with her mom. Back to the topic...so I searched around and finally found a frame that I liked and my sister liked, pretty funky colours too..hahaha! Took a cab to town after making my new pair of specs which is to be collected tomorrow (today since it's already past 12am). Went to Wisma first, Cindy checked out Topshop and couldn't find anything, I went to Topman and got this retro red polka dotted shirt which I wanted to get last Christmas...I think Manying you would remember it..LOL! I didn't get it the last time because it was too broad for the shoulders then but now after much training..hahaha..it fits me perfectly now. Wanted to get a newspaper boy cap as well but they didn't have my size, couldn't find any nice new wallet as well all seemed so punk rockish, wanted to get a belt too but non were appealing and AMAZINGLY that shirt was all I went home with. Cindy shopped a lot, well not really a lot but she tried on a lot of stuff, esp. at Mango. I was there as her fashion advisor/clothes hanger. Happy to help her pick out some stuff that made her look different for a change, a bit of 60s and a youngish feel to the new wardrobe she and I picked out. I know for sure she's going to look great in those clothes! Dan came to meet us for dinner, we ate at Pacific Plaza then headed home. Bought apple strudel for Ritz on the way for mom. Everybody was dead tired when we came home, I'm much too tired to do any studying so here I am blogging and now I'm much too tired to blog anymore..Goodnight readers
Labels: Cin, Out with my Sis
posted on Saturday, February 10, 2007 @ 2/10/2007 12:56:00 AM | back to the top.
What's wrong with me today? I woke up really angry...for no reason...and during lecture I felt all bored and emo. Was late to meet James...like 1 hour late cause of the stupid photocopying aunty. Gosh....went with James to Raffles City Shopping Centre, intention? To get his girlfriend Charissa a gift for Valentine's day. So he got her a necklace from Perlini's and he was worried it'd be too small for her neck so he asked the lady to extend it but the extention went out of stock so we headed back to my place to play a little cards after ages. But before that we made a little detour to AMK to get more cards...gosh...it's been long since we've visited that shop too. Came home, played 2 rounds, I lost once and drew the next round and we went to watch youTube videos. He went home not long after and I was home...alone. Went to my room and lay on my bed staring into the blank ceiling, nothing in my mind. Went back to the computer not long after, started playing golden oldies and James was sending me few as well. A sudden surge of sadness filled me and for what reason I do not know why too. I started tearing..maybe the songs were the cause of it? I don't know...it's depressing to think about it anymore. Exams are around the corner and I have no mood to study. I feel like quitting school, I hate this course, but what other options do I have. So what if I scored well? I wasn't elated...not in the least bit, I would just be satisfied. My mind's a mess now...I don't know what I'm doing these days. Everyday I tell myself to quit but I can't...it's not an addiction...it's more of a habit. I do it because I'm sad..and I'm sad because I do it, what am I saying...it's such a lousy excuse. I sleep at 4 or 5 am everyday and wake up at 11 or a bit later. Life's getting more and more boring. I wonder how I can live through this any longer...but I'm not going to kill myself or anything...don't worry my readers. I'm curious to see how I'll cope with it and live on. It'll be crappy and pathetic but I'll try. If anybody is free enough...could you do me a favour by checking out the symptoms of a person who is about to go insane or schizophrenic, thanks. I'm a good kid...I'm filial to my parents and siblings, I do not lose my temper as often as I did in secondary, I try to be as accomodating as I can to all my friends but why am I still feeling so down and out, I just don't get it!My thoughts are what fill my life,
Inside it all there is no peace.
How can one hold such strife?
Tell me so I can live my life with ease.
Yes, so I do take a puff ever and anon,
It's not as though I'm having so much pleasure.
Most of the time it's just me and me alone,
Forget my life, it's no treasure!
Some people stare and say "What a horrendous sight!"
And I go home to the mirror and look
Indeed I don't look a delight.
So then I realise it must be what I took.
Is it my fate or my will that I be so broken,
So much guilt and misery entrap my nights.
Many dark secrets I hold, but now I must be open,
For the shadows like to thee do mock my sight.
My eyelids have grown as heavy as my thoughts.
Now, I must retire to my room.
With reluctance I head to bed, afraid of dreams of all sorts.
So please pray that I won't meet my doom.
Sorry this has been such a sad and depressing post, but do not shower me with sympathy..it'll just make things worse. I feel much better letting it all out, guess I'm happier than I was just now. Goodnight or rather Goodmorning...it's now 3am and I've got to get my rest...
posted on Tuesday, February 06, 2007 @ 2/06/2007 10:14:00 PM | back to the top.
Tiring tiring day it was today although there was no school, woke up with my whole body aching though that's not something new cause it happens almost everyday. Called my mom to the room and asked her to give me a neck rub and asked her while I was half asleep: " We should go to look for a matteress today! Let's go to IKEA now. " The plan yesterday was to go to IKEA today but I had no idea why I was in such a rush, maybe I was just sleepy. Woke up at around 2.30pm...had my "Brunch" which was Kellogg's Frosties and Waffles. Watched "Street Fighter Alpha The Animated Movie" on AXN while eating my brunch, review of the cartoon? It was P-P-P-POWERRRR! Got ready at 4 to go to IKEA with my mom afterwhich we walked to the Yishun interchange to take 855. Bus ride was damn bloody long, I swear I could've gone to JB within the same time maybe even faster. Walking into IKEA, me and my mom got this whiff of some foul smell which my mom said smelt like PISS WATER and for no reason she cursed the person who pissed somewhere around, and as to where he did it or if someone even really pissed, I do not know anything. Then in IKEA, we went to look for a new study desk, swivel chair, shoe rack, matteress, coat hangers, and more storage space, all for my room. What we did end up buying was everything on the list including some unnecessary stuff(e.g. Alarm Clock for my room) except the study desk because we forgot the measurements. Took a cab back where this uncle who was driving it didn't know where Yishun Street 11 was! I had to guide him...gosh! Reached home and spent another 2 hours fixing up everything I bought for my room and shifted it all in. I have to say, the look I've always wanted for my room is becoming reality, just the desk and the dressing table that's out of place and I need a new TV!Ok, so I promised to give a review of all the movies I rented and here's the first
Addicted to Love: **** upon 5
My Opinion: Sam's(Matthew Broderick) broken hearted over his girlfriend dumping him, and he (litteraly) has a run in with Maggie(Meg Ryan) who also has been dumped and what do you know? Their respective others are dating each other. They team together so Maggie can get revenge and Sam can get his girlfriend back. Though the end is totally predictable, it's still fun yet dark and damn hilarious. I'd reccommend this if you like black comedies.
Alright, that's all for today...I gotta go get myself a bowl of Bird's nest soup which my mom was brewing the whole day..till next time...goodbye readers!
posted on Monday, February 05, 2007 @ 2/05/2007 09:01:00 PM | back to the top.
Oh gosh...I am so glad that my stupid Java project is over. Though I know I won't score great marks but I thought my group could at least pass the project with what we presented today. Though I don't know about David, he was presenting something that was not supposed to be presented, examiner also kept bombing him with questions that he couldn't answer. THIS IS WHY PEOPLE SHOULD NEVER LEARN TO BE A FREE RIDER FOR PROJECTS! Soon after the presentation was over I slept in the lab waiting for Sebas to finish his own presentation, yes that was how tired I was. Woke up with a fever and so I took a cab back. On the way I borrowed a few VCDs and DVDs, though coincidently they all stared Meg Ryan and the genre of all the movies were Romantic Comedys, I just realised this after reaching home. Before I could watch any of them I went to my room to sleep again, this was my longest nap ever from 12PM - 8PM and that's like 8 hours!?!? But people....take into account that I've only slept for a total 21 hours the past 5 days. Woke up and my mom made wonderful pasta with cream of mushroom soup but this new brand of instant soup she bought tasted like vomit juice when I drank it, my mom agreed too. No school tomorrow so I'm going with my mom to IKEA to get some stuff for my room. Alright...want to know the list of the movies I rented? Well, here it is:
Don't ask me why I rented these movies but what I can tell you is that I'll give the reviews after I've finished watching em'...Let's see...Alright I'm gonna start with " Addicted to Love".
This is yet another worthless post by Rick and till next time, goodbye readers!
posted on Sunday, January 28, 2007 @ 1/28/2007 01:16:00 AM | back to the top.
Dreary,Beaten,
Sent into a daze.
Stars whisk me towards a blaze.
Clueless,
Pointless,
Lost in bliss.
I'm slipping away straight into the abyss.
Stressed,
Depressed,
So much of emotion.
Much like that of a Hollywood connotation
I see not my future,
I see not my past,
Only my present
That's spining so fast.
Buzzing thoughts of death ever so near.
What is dejection when death is not to fear?
I hope to move on and forget everything,
But what can I do if I can't even get over the smallest of things!
posted on Friday, January 26, 2007 @ 1/26/2007 12:30:00 AM | back to the top.
Nominees for Best Fight Sequence
The starting where they look at each other and how that ass clown licks his blade already shows how gay the fight is gonna be. Then fight zooms in to the 2 guys exchanging blows and how their saliva is spouting out all over. The 2 then rip their shirts apart because of small holes in their attire and they start whacking each other relentlessly and the best part of all, they're not even blocking each other's attacks! There's this next part where the good guy then grabs the bad guy's face which is so dumb and this girl who has a broken arm comes along swings a towel like it's such a damn powerful weapon and uses it to pull the bad guy's knife away. Funny part comes after his left eye gets stabbed by a nail in the wall and he starts screaming for a damn long time. Next funny scene is when the bad guy fights with the girl, there will be times where he stops...waits for her to attack him and after receiving her blows he just groans louder and louder, think this is around 2:32-2:39, also look out for the girl doing a backflip with a broken arm. Next up, they continue fight until the bad guy falls onto a crane and stabs his OTHER eye this time. The good guy pulls the lever for the crane and the bad guy dangles in the air from his eye which is freaking disgusting. Cheesiest lines come up next..girl says: " I'll keep an EYE out for you...STINGRAY ", guy then says: " YEAH...SEE YOU" with the most retarded expression on his face.
This is from a Hindhi movie. Just retarded lines and pathetic punches and sound effects.
This is a classic, whole thing is just hilarious...too much to comment so I won't say anything just watch and enjoy.
posted on Friday, January 19, 2007 @ 1/19/2007 10:52:00 PM | back to the top.
I know I'm not supposed to be here posting anything but this week just has been too stressful. 3 projects plus french dialog next week.Here is the status of those 4 tasks I have at hand:
Principles of Management
Due date: 29 January
- Completed the interview and found the 2 articles, all that is left to do is to link the interview back to theory work and complete the ppt.
Economics
Due date: 21 January
- Arguably the most stressful project I've done my whole life thus far. Found most of the data, finished analysis today, have not started on qn2 though we've only decided what business we're going to do. Team is also a bit disoriented? Is that the proper word...sigh...I don't know
Java
Due date: 30 January
- Tough to do project but lecturer is kind enough to lend us each a helping hand so if we happen to get stuck anywhere, he'll be there to help us whenever he can. Basically completed like 50% of the project and with the additional helping hand next week we're getting, we should be able to complete another 20% at least.
Parental Advisory: This Post May Contain Explicit and Vulgar language
Ok, here's what happened today. I woke up with a splitting headache...wondered for a while whether I should attend school. But the thought of not going for project discussion just wouldn't leave my mind and my group wouldn't have completed anything if I had not been there today. Went to meet my grp members at 2pm..ok 2.16pm, I was late. Reached there and I was stunned to see another group in the project room. OKAY...nevermind. Then I saw my GROUP MEMBER, sitting and discussing with them, so I thought to myself what the fuck is he doing over there instead of coming to discuss the itenary for today's project meeting? E later told me that he was doing the management project, upon hearing this my whole mood just changed. Why the fuck is he doing some other project which is due the week after next and not doing the one that's due this weekend!?!? Gosh..freaking frustrated with this guy. He's also damn fucking self-conceited, thinks he is damn bloody big and same goes for his eldest sis who scolded me for no reason when I was in his group the last time. I was analysing all the data today plus reading pages after pages of information and searching every possible website for things we could use. Ok...so another group member of mine, Jotham came very late but I understand he's like that and I've done all my projects with him so far so I know his capacity and what he's able to do and not do and I've got no prob with him in the least bit. He asked "that self-conceited" guy what needs to be done and that ass told Jotham go ask someone else cause he's wasn't doing, Jotham then asked whether Econs project was done already and that ass said no but he completed his part already. What fucking part did he do? Go to one bloody website and download a file which I read and analysed while he was doing his own bloody management project!?!? I almost felt like going there and slapping him in the face...but nvm...don't want to be in court being sued for assault and coming out in the newspaper since he KNOWS so many reporters and big shits. Finished doing everything only at around 7 plus reached home at 8.30pm...super tired...gosh...
This is officially my most vulgar posting ever...please mind my language...peace out...my mind is appeased...
posted on Monday, January 15, 2007 @ 1/15/2007 11:03:00 PM | back to the top.
Today's post will be my last post until the 1st of March. As to why, the picture below will explain everything.
Yes, my exams are coming so in order for my resolution to get a GPA or 3.0 and above, I have to start studying from Wednesday onwards.
As for today, well everything went according to usual..normal classes then tennis. Here's an advice for people playing tennis: Wear tennis shoes and not running shoes when you are going to play tennis, only idiots like me wear running shoes and play. Consequence: I slipped...did a split...and stretched my knee which was already hurt and aggravated the sprain in my left foot. Yes, sounds very painful...it is...and now my ankle is swelled up like a ball again just when it looked alright this morning.
Walking back home was the worst part of today especially. I walked the usual way from Yishun MRT to get back home only today there was a dead rat on the pathway which looked totally disgusting with maggots and stuff all feasting on its corpse. Then when I got into the lift and the door was closing, this chinese man ran to the lift asking me to hold the lift and I quickly pressed the door open button. And fook!!! when the doors opened that man just wasn't there anymore!! Where the hell did he go to!?!? Sheeesh..my heart started racing as I went up in the lift...freaky shit man. Gosh...no one was at home as well when I got back. But they were all back in like 10 mins or so.
Sigh..today is the last day I will be going online, blogging and the only thing I will do is reply messages from my tag board. So if there's anything you want to ask me or tell me just tag. Alright...it's a sad sign off today...buaizzzzzzzzzz
posted on Thursday, January 11, 2007 @ 1/11/2007 12:42:00 AM | back to the top.
Today started off quite badly and ended off just as bad or probably even worse. I was supposed to meet Jun Kai at 9.45am today cause we intended to go for the lecture. I woke up at 9am and msged Jun Kai straight away that I'll be late to meet him. Then he replied ok just hurry. So I did and I left the house at 9.40am and reached Yio Chu Kang at 10am. I tried calling him before I left the house to ask where he was but he didn't pick up so I decided to try calling when I reached. And when I did that....he was still home and told me he just finished bathing!!! OK..nvm...luckily I had my songs to keep me company while waiting(waited approx. 30mins). Went to class as usual nothing much...did project after class ended and didn't really achieve much. Football was at 6pm later in the evening with Jun Kai and the gang, Khairul, my bro from secondary school also came to play. Started of the matches pretty quickly cause we only had the court for 2 hours, and playing football after like 6 months is not cool at all, I lost my reading of the game, marking and dribbling was awful. I was just playing shitty today and what's worse is that left knee pain attacked me AGAIN!!! Couldn't bend or run about comfortably...then I sprained my left ankle which healed from a sprain...GOSH. Jun Kai unintentionally tackled me and I fell on my left ankle which then later led to my team conceding A LOT of goals. I got too serious and started playing very roughly trying to win back possession everytime my team lost it and almost made a small malay boy fall. Yeah...my bad, and Jun Kai scolded me whereas others asked me to relax a bit...lol...too enthu about winning I guess...hahaha. There's a statistics test tomorrow and I haven't touched my book. It's going to be another flunked test for me I guess...gosh...Studying sucks.It's 1am already, got to wake up at 7am to read a bit a least so I had better stop here...sigh...life's been so stale since the end of the holidays.