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A human with a severe lack of common sense, and powerfully apathetic towards his deficiency; To completely and utterly
screw something up so badly that it cannot be repaired. The result of sending in an idiot to deal with a burched situation;
a rick is another name for a short fat hairy apeman that nobody likes.
posted on Friday, May 08, 2009 @ 5/08/2009 03:56:00 AM | back to the top.
It's 3.42am in the morning right now, and I still can't get to sleep. I watched 19 episodes of Skip Beat! in just one night. While watching it occurred to me how sad and pathetic my love life has been. Truth is...I don't really think I've loved any of the girls I've been with at all. Yea I did treat them nice and all, and the thing is that I've never gotten angry with any them AT all nor even got into a heated argument. I just simply believed that conflict was unnecessary and it would kill my brain-cells to go through the whole pre and post-argument process. I've always wanted them to be happy, in which I've realised that all my relationships revolved around the certain "her" and not "us". Then came these two lines from Skip Beat! which pierced me.."I would never be that someone who's special to you" and "You will never have a place in your heart for me". Coincidently, both my ex-girlfriends said these lines when they broke up with me. Of course there were more lines than just those two. One other line which another girl said to me that I remember was "You're here with me, but you're always somewhere else"..which is true..I've always just been there, physically, but my mind and heart were always somewhere else. I've recently just been dumped by another girl, who didn't break up with me and went to get engaged to another guy. I never thought such scenarios would ever happen in reality unless it was from a scene out from "Days of Our Lives". I still don't know how badly affected I am by this cause I still seem pretty normal, and I don't remember it at all until I start to feel lost and lonely. The only girl I think I may have had real feelings for was Elizabeth, but then again...I got over her in about a week or so. I've absolutely no clue now what love is or feels like, it may even be the clichéd description which came from Skip Beat! but I hope I that one day when it hits me, I'll realise it.The time now is 4.28am. I've got to wake up in 4.5 hours time for work. I must be nuts to be blogging about such redundant and immature thoughts in the wee hours of the morning, but I couldn't help it. Well...signing out